...she's so pretty, so talented, so pretty, so famous, so pretty, has big eyes, so pretty, is rich, so pretty, has connections, so pretty, so perfect, so pretty, so flawless, so pretty...and did I mention she's freaking gorgeous? oh..and so very pretty? -.-

anyhow, I've fallen in love with her new song Mirrorcle World, even more reason for me to like her...and even MORE reason for me to hate her.
blah. doesn't make any sense...I know.
but without further ado, I've posted her new song on my page, and here are the lyrics:

Ima no konna mirai o boku wa souzou shite ta darou ka
Ima no konna mirai o kimi wa souzou shite ta darou ka

Ima no konna mirai o boku wa nozonde ita no darou ka
Ima no konna mirai o kimi wa nozonde ita no darou ka

Hajimari na no ka tte Shuuen na no ka tte
Akirameta no ka tte Funbatte n no ka tte
Hirakinaotta ka tte Zetsubou shita ka tte
Tada mae ni susume to Anata wa iu ja nai

Ima no konna jidai o boku wa uketomerareru darou ka
Ima no konna jidai o kimi wa uketomerareru darou ka

Mi wo makasen no katte Fuinsaretai no katte
Mitemimefuri katte Mitemonai no katte
Tatakau teru no katte Shirohata na no katte
Giseisha tsurashitte Nigeteru baai janai

Nee bokura ga kono sekai wa gensoku suru youso no naku
Kono mama ga suku no dake ga machitsuzuketara

Yeah....
Wow wow wow wow
Yeah....
Wow Wow Wow

Hajimari na no ka tte Shuuen na no ka tte
Akirameta no ka tte Funbatte n no ka tte
Hirakinaotta ka tte Zetsubou shita ka tte
Tada mae ni susume to Anata wa iu ja nai

Nakanai de irareru no wa
Tsuyoku natta kara
Soretomo ...

Lyric added by: lovellayu

現在のこんな未来を僕は想像してただろうか
現在のこんな未来を君は想像してただろうか

現在のこんな未来を僕は望んでいたのだろうか
現在のこんな未来を君は望んでいたのだろうか

始まりなのかって　終焉なのかって
諦めたのかって　踏ん張ってんのかって

開き直ったかって　絶望したかって
ただ前に進めと　あなたが言うんじゃない

現在のこんな時代を僕は受け止められるだろうか
現在のこんな時代を君は受け止められるだろうか

身を任せんのかって　不意に止めたいのかって
見ているフリかって　見てもいないのかって

戦ってんのかって　白旗なのかって
犠牲者面して　逃げてる場合じゃない

ねえ　僕らのこの世界は減速する予想もなく
このまま加速度だけが増し続けたら

始まりなのかって　終焉なのかって
諦めたのかって　踏ん張ってんのかって

開き直ったかって　絶望したかって
ただ前に進めと　あなたが言うんじゃない

泣かないでいられるのは
強くなったから
それとも・・・


Lyric added by: lovellayu

Did I imagine this kind of future?
Did you imagine this kind of future?

Did I wish for this kind of future?
Did you wish for this kind of future?

They ask me "The beginning or the end?"
"Did you give up Or are you holding on?"
"Are you shrugging off Or in despair?"
You tell me Just to go forward

Am I able to handle this kind of era?
Are you able to handle this kind of era?

Should I leave my body, or remain trapped inside it?
Should I pretend I can see it, or is it just not there anyway?
Should I fight, or raise the white flag?
I'm not going to run away like a victim

In this world, we have to slow down because we don't know everything
That way, we can continue down a cleared path

They ask me "The beginning or the end?"
"Did you give up Or are you holding on?"
"Are you shrugging off Or in despair?"
You tell me Just to go forward

Is it because I've become strong
That I can be without tears

I've found something new to play around with, Adobe Photoshop CS!
taadaa!
*sparkles and confetti fall from the sky*
(as if I already don't spend enough time on the computer.)
It's like a shiny new toy with hundreds and hundreds of buttons!
I'm constantly going, "ooh! what does this button doo?"

So, I took a few of my pictures and screwed around with them...
"DUDE! I can totally put makeup on my face WITHOUT ACTUALLY PUTTING MAKEUP ON MY FACE!!! fancy that!"

...you can tell I was excited.
I've heared about all the interesting things people can accomplish with photoshop, but I didn't really have the chance to figure it out for myself until now ^.^ First, I experimented with the brush tool, a little blush, and a little eyeliner...hey look Ma!
It only looks like I'm wearing makeup! but I'm not! it's fake! mwahaha!But then, I accidentally discovered the blur and smudge tool, and THAT is where the fun began. I discovered the many things I could do with with the smudge tool by my side. I messed with the color levels and contrast first, then I evened out my skin tone with the brush tool, added makeup with the fancy brush tool, and then decided to give myself a nose job with the smudge and blur tools. Ahah. I look so different! It's kind of scary to know that I can look like a completely different person just by messing with my pictures on my computer...
...doesn't it make you think twice about the models on the magazines? It makes me wonder if that's what they really look like in real life. Heh, I'm not good at photoshop, but I've discovered how to make myself look good XD

But don't worry, I wont start photoshopping my pictures. I'd prefer it if you guys knew what I really looked like, so I can complain about myself to you ^.^
Wouldn't you like that?
Clutching my head in agony...okay, so it wasn't THAT bad, but I'mma dramaqueen. :D But I do want you to know, despite all the "lovely" pictures of me that you have seen, that really isn't me, and I DO NOT look THAT GOOD in real life, I'm just a normal girl, with terrible features, that wishes she was pretty...and below is what I really look like. :)



...

Personally I don't think I look all that fantastic in person, but hey! look at my pictures, they look nice! It's because I'm such an awesome photographer :D (conceited nah?!)

Sure the model poses and "looks good", but the photographer is the one who's "painting" the picture, or telling the story.

Good lighting, good angles.

Model has a big nose? Either tilt the models head slightly to the side or take the picture from a three-quarter angle, obviously giving the impression of a smaller nose. (I have a big nose...so I tend to tilt my camera a lot :/)

I'm writing about this because I get so many compliments on the pictures I post on the web, but I look COMPLETELY different in real life than I do in a photo, but I DO know the girl in the picture is me, but I don't LOOOOOOK that GOOOOOD.

Matter of fact, the girl I see when I look in the mirror, scares me! ...just a little ^.^

Blah, anyhow, to tan or NOT to tan?

I didn't really care until I turned thirteen and I went to the Philippines for the first time and my family oohhd and aahhd over my light skin, after that I became self-concious about my skin color. Which is kind of a good thing, Because I avoided direct sunlight and or wore sunscreen...

it was only this year where I discovered too much sunlight is a bad thing, it prematurely ages your skin! :/

A scary thought.

So, I've developed this mindset where I WANT "white" skin. Like the chinese or korean people.

T.T But I'm hopelessly dark skinned.

Thats the bad thing...!!!

I'll be going to the beach a lot...BECAUSE I FREAKING LOVE THE BEACH OKAY?!?

but I can't swim if I don't want to get darker...

BUT I FREAKING LOVE TO SWIM!?!

GAWEIRJAWIERJAIWEJRILAKLJWDAIQWAQQQ!!!!!!!!!!!!

*pant, pant*

:(

how unfair! I guess I'll be hopelessly dark for the rest of my living days.

...

maybe I should go hermit zombie on everybody. Then I can be as white as a ghost! yey.
hmph. Fine. I'll just go eat my mint chocolate ice cream and stew in my depression. weeping for my vanity. -.- /cry. /sob.

(AFTER - WITH BANGS)


(AFTER - With SIDE Bangs)
(excuse the flatness, I took the pictures right after I got out of the shower ^.^)
I like my new hair cut. It lays beautifully on and around my head and face, the long layers cancel out the waviness, my frayed ends are cut but my length has been retained, and I have wonderful sidebangs that I can wear as bangs whenever I feel like I can pull off zee bangs look! ^.^
exciting.

I pretty much woke up this morning, crawled out of bed, and decided to plan my brothers birthday party. I walked into the kitchen, looked at my family eating breakfast and, "Hey, when is the birthday party going to be?" :D

I made a list of people he said he wanted to invite, and the food he wanted to eat. Originally he wanted to go and play lasertag, but with the gas prices and extra money for the party...we kind of...can't handle it.

So, I'm cooking everything ^.^

And making the cake.

I'm excited, although I have a feeling I'm going to become stressed the day before >.<

I don't know why I volunteer for such things.

The heroine, flawless beauty, quick wit, intelligence...

We also played two games of lasertag! it's just too bad one game is 5USD for only 7 and a half minutes.

I have something to ask, is it illegal to have good-looking bowling shoes? Is it the law to have weird funky looking bowling shoes with blinding bright colors? sheesh.

How does one get pro at bowling? I'd like to know...It'd be nice to reach one hundred for once XD I got the lowest score out of everybody, my guy friend beat me by one point (77-78)

pro at air hockey.
That girl is pretty much awesome.

Oh bother, I was supposed to save fifteen dollars for my brothers birthday gift. One word: FAILURE.

I walked into a store and LO and BEHOLD! there are 34$ shoes on sale for 6.99!

There was this one black pair, the LAST pair, in my size, it was so cute...and I SWEAR I could hear it calling my name. It was alone, all alone, a cute pair of shoes on sale surrounded by fifty other ugly on sale shoes, poor poor shoe... I had to save it.

And my other reason is that it'll look good with my prom dress :D

Oh, then I spent three dollars on a chicken sandwhich, because I was hungry.

...

I couldn't help it. I know I broke the rule of spending time at the mall...

and I lost self-control. (Well, my self-control sucks as it is.)

I was at the mall from 11:50 AM, and then I had work at 4:00, so I had to do SOMETHING for five hours...so I walked, back and forth, then forth and back.

I stood in lines, talked to a cute little boy who told me his name and pointed to the woman next to him and told me, "THAT'S MOMMY, she's waiting in line, and she's TAKING FOREVER!!!"

and I bought something...then returned it. XD

Finally at 3:30, I walked into work, exausted from my day's adventure.

Oh, and before I came into work I sat down for an hour and read a book I took along with me. (I knew I was going to be there for a while.)

"A Long Fatal Love Chase" by Louisa May Alcott. So far so good. ^.^

Temptation and self-control.

Ugh.

I feel a zit growing on my chin.

Double Ugh.

I am deeply dissapointed in Burts Bees Peach and Apricot Deep pore Scub. Didn't help at all, no change for me in 3 months...I went back on the Olive Oil scrub...which works wonders for my acne pron skin. Grawr. Ugh.